Still I look to find a reason to believe…
My father is a spiritual man who believes that G-d does for us what we cannot do for ourselves. This view was derived from evidence in his own life, compelling evidence. At times I think he’s cuck-coo, idealistic, and okay, fine, I’ll admit it - annoyingly insistent about this. I find it frustrating because I like to believe that even with the existence of a higher power, humans are best able to control their own lives. Tonight, however, life gave me reason to believe that he is right on.
Clearly it has been a long time since I have written. The reasons can be listed here; some complex and some so simple. I have had less time (simple), I have become more private (complex) and I don’t feel that people should have access to my transparent nature (both). I am writing today, however, because I have felt a surge of creativity lately which was once unleashed through this blog. I miss writing and so here I am once again. As I knew a year ago, it is important to let it out “because keeping it all in can be VERY dangerous!”
Tomorrow is December first and it will be a special day for me. I guess I still look to find a reason to believe; I guess that deep down, I always have.
Just when you believe that the tides have turned, you’ll notice that they revert back…Seldom do we see major change - and when we do, hopefully it is for the best because if it is not, you’ve got to swim against the tide to reverse it once more.